The sad task of obituary writer is mine. It is sad to write a page with a heart that asks: and then what? But we are dedicated to the struggle: or to succeed in disappearing. It is inevitable and so one of us inevitably vanishes.
Uh! And how the imbeciles will howl: willful anarchist! Who can understand the storm that roars in our brain? Who can understand our hunger for joy, for life? Who can understand our defeat due to human cowardice?
We are alone. We did not find the group of daredevils ready to participate in the struggle for the conquest of life.
Therefore, we were defeated.
And one of us has vanished. The other remains with his eyes fixed on the horizon. He cannot, he must not depart. This is our destiny. Will we find comrades?
Otherwise, each in our own way, we will disappear, silent or tumultuous, from the stage of the world.
A chapter has closed.
A chapter of struggle, of hopes, of illusions. But the end has not come. As these strange, unusual lives come to an end, we will come to understand that it would have been better if they had never been born.
And that’s all there is to say.
(Summer 1918)
